Have you ever had a moment in life where the floor just seems to drop out from under you? Your walking along just fine and then bam! Everything turns dark, cold, and you struggle to breath. Nothing makes sense in that moment. It takes every muscle, every ounce of will just to take the next step. Like Disney’s frozen 2 “ do the next right thing”…I have been there.
I think this is how Simon-Peter must have felt too. Shortly before his name change- Simon knew that if Jesus asked him to Walk on water he would/could do it. He took a huge risk, probably one of the biggest. One minute he is walking with Jesus doing the exact thing he was called to do – the next, the floor literally fell out from beneath him. The pain of air suddenly being forced out of his body by the cold salt water, and just trying to breath, and hang on to life.
I wonder what the conversation would have been back in the boat. After Jesus fishes him out and walked him back, the scriptures say that; “And the very moment they both stepped into the boat, the raging wind ceased” and they praised Jesus – saying He “truly is the son of God” Imagine if Jesus hadn’t stopped the storm just for a second. I am sure the gossip mill would start up…the rolling of eyes, the I told you so’s or even just the pain of awkward silence. I imagine Simon’s inner pain in that moment, sitting soaking wet, in a rocking boat, the frustration and humiliation. His thoughts inside his head, wishing a redo – “If I had only done this…I could have made it.” “If I fought fear a little harder.” If, if , if …. and through it all trying to see the blessing of his life just saved. To be present with Jesus.
I relate so much to Simon in that moment, I have had the metaphorical rug pulled out from under me, countless times. The truth is , even though I miscarried before, nothing prepared me for my 2 month pregnancy to miscarriage last week. You feel like you cannot breath. You feel broken, incapable and an utter failure as a human. All the while trying to see through the blind tears to a blessing- because God saved your life from an ectopic rupture. “if only I had done this , if only I had fought harder, if only,…” – truth is you cannot go back and rewind and change it.
And yet, Jesus says just 2 chapters later – “ I give you the name Peter, a stone. And this rock will be the bedrock foundation on which I will build my church and the power of death or hell will not be able to overpower it!” – Passion translation
Jesus takes Simon-Peter, the one who feared, the one who sank, who failed, the one who would deny and even walk away… to be bedrock – the foundation. Seems like a pretty poor choice… or some inside joke – sink like a rock… but in all seriousness – why?
HOPE. I like to think it is not because Peter was unbreakable – no much the opposite – God knew that. But because Peter was broken so much, that when mixed with the water of Holy Spirit he created foundation that was immovable. To show us that even we, in our infinite broken states have potential, have hope. That We, like Peter could be ground and beaten so much that when mixed with Jesus – we become concrete in our faith.
So this week in honour of Easter coming and of Peter, I give you salmon. Maple glazed salmon is my favourite way to eat fish and Grandbaby cakes has a great recipe.
Maple Glazed Salmon – by Grandbaby Cakes
- 1/2 cup maple syrup
- 3 tbsp brown sugar
- 1 1/2 tbsp fresh lime juice
- 2 tsp minced garlic
- 1/4 tsp paprika
- 1/8 tsp black pepper
For the Seasoning
- 2 lbs wild salmon thick cut filets – fresh not frozen
- salt and pepper to taste
- 1/2 tsp garlic powder
- 1/2 tsp onion powder
- 1/4 tsp paprika
- 1/8 tsp creole seasoning
- 1/8 tsp cayenne pepper optional
For the Maple Glaze
- Preheat oven to 375.
- Whisk together all glaze ingredients and set aside.
For the Seasoning
- Pat each side of salmon with a paper towel to remove extra moisture then season both sides with salt and pepper to taste.
- Whisk together the remaining spices and set aside.
- Add salmon to the direct center of a large piece of greased or non stick foil with enough on the sides to fold over when baking. Sprinkle seasoning on top of salmon and make sure to pat in.
- Spoon the maple glaze over the top of the salmon. Fold the sides of the foil up to completely enclose the salmon. If you need more foil, just layer over the top and close.
- Bake for about 14-15 minutes or until salmon is almost done cooking. Remove salmon from the oven.
- Change your setting to broil , uncover the foil and place salmon under the broiler for about 2 minutes or until golden then remove from oven.